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Wow haven't blogged in a while...
had alot of fun things since spring semester stared. some guy in my history class thought i was cute and asked me out but i wasnt really interested to i told him i had a bf. haha?have a bio teacher who knows about the "dick in the box song" hahah, went clubbing yesterday with debbie and liana, and my friend AJ was there too! how random! got us in for free XD yay! danced with a tall black guy whose croch was on my back while he was dancing, REALLY awkward and weird. hahah. well, aj had her friends with her too and i met this boy, and how can i forget his name?! he was really cute, atleast i think so. XD hehe. aj told me to dance with him but it was weird since she told me that like right infront of his face. liana's ex was there too haha everyone was there! it was weird. i saw some walnut people toooo O_O it was asian night or something hahah. he dances really well,O_O team millenia performed and hung out there which was awesome! THEN, some titie contest came on and all the boys were like YEAHH!! while all the girls were hating hahah. poor debbie fanced with a 25 year old drunk filiipino who supposedly has a child ? LOL! and i danced with franz'z cousin? who was a good dancer but had a tent....O_o. talkin about this makes me feel like im still in highschool. there some old fart white girls there. and one was totally drunk and started babbling to me in the bathroom cause she thought i cut her off in line while going in the bathroom! wtheck?!

hmm what else, oh! went to the beach on such a perfect day with matt, that was fun :]

anyway, I've been through alot since the last time i blogged here.
broke up with my bf almost 2 months ago for something thats not my fault... felt like a fool. like a realllll idiot...realized that whoever will put me through the same thing does not deserve me.But then again, i keep on telling that to myself and i still keep on coming back.. like a stupid dumbass. all my pride was seriously thrown away down the drain, and i felt powerless, hopeless, and again, very stupid. i just cant believe that i did all that shit. i didn't get the type of apology i wanted either...
NOW..im moving on, trying to get busy.. its sad to say that all i can do now is hate him..i hate him so much. Id rather feel that hatred than hold on to something that will never be....i. am. such. a. loser... a loser for a fucken loser... he seriously pissed me off that day he sat where i sat in sociology class. its like wtf are you doing?! he looks at his friend with an "awkward look" and i wanted to punch his face. seriously wtf was he doing?! wth did he expect ?! why would you sit on the table ive been sitting on for the past month?! attention whore.

ugh no more dumb boys. who does shit cause "everyones doing it"..seriously weak.

i saw a concert with matt today at fullerton. it was soooo interesting. it hought it was gonna be boring since its like a choir concert that i just needed to go to for my music class, but it was pretty fun :]. then p90, and i felt like crap cause i felt so lazyyy..ssdjfjlskd
im tired. time to shower and sleep. tootles!