Nice picture huh? This is me and my boyfriend today. It can really be deceiving ta first glance...normal happy couple taking a happy picture together. But underneath this picture comes sadness, and a relationship's fragile existance....Today, we have admitted that we both loved each other but were not IN LOVE...Take this picture and put it in with a sad song, and you'll get a girl staring at an ending, a goodbye. "i just wish i met you later on in life" he said, and i felt the same way.No lie, i have loved him more than anyone in my life and i mean that. After all the time of trying to fix the knotts , we came to find that the rope ends where it began. We went to the park today with a matt, a pillow and a blanket... lying down together while in our minds, the things we have been thinking about-- us, school, and pretty much whats in store for the rest of our lives. Arroyo park, where he had asked me to be his, became the park where we finally both agreed that an "us" will not work out at this time of our lives...a possibility of later on? maybe? i dont know. We have digged a hole of adventures, happiness, sadness, love, and laughter--treasures...only to find that its purpose was to be slowly burried as our feelings slowly starts to deteriorate...I cant see him as my soul mate and neither can he. Its really more tragic to find that theres an agreement between lost feelings. Its a guaranteed 100% farewell...as someone youre in love becomes someone you USED to be in love with, but still loves in a a strange way...Everything does not matter now... the things that we got wrong, flaws, our problems and faults... Im focusing on cherishing every ounce of love and time we have left...
We decided stay together a little bit longer for the time being...but we both come to terms that this is one of those slow good byes. So here it is....im counting down...
